Why do I even meditate?

There are days when meditation feels like the ultimate gift – a quiet refuge where the mind settles, the breath softens and everything just clicks. The stillness is deep, nourishing and it feels like I've tapped into a well of peace and wisdom that was always there. But other times, meditation feels like anything but peaceful. My mind races, thoughts fly in every direction and frustration builds. I’m left wondering, *why do I even meditate?*

This cycle of meditative ease and restlessness mirrors life. Sometimes everything flows smoothly and other times it feels like we’re trudging through thick mud. The key is recognising that both experiences serve a purpose. When our meditations feel shallow, filled with thoughts or agitation, it’s often because we’re in the process of releasing stress. The mind is offloading the debris of accumulated worries, emotions and conditioning, all of which need space to surface and dissolve.

This is also when the ego steps in trying to reclaim control. The ego thrives on friction, drama and maintaining its place on the throne of our being. It feeds on our attachment to the very thoughts and stories we encounter during meditation, keeping us in the cycle of identifying with our worries and fears and ensuring we remain distracted from the deeper truth.

But meditation is an invitation to allow the grace of our heart to lead. It offers a space where the noise can rise and we can simply observe, knowing that beyond the agitation is a more profound state of awareness. Our heart, free from the ego’s grip, guides us toward a life of inner alignment. The more we allow this grace to flow, the less control the ego has.

So, why do I meditate? Because even in the moments of friction, there is a deep cleansing taking place. There’s growth. And when the ego's grip loosens, what emerges is a life led by the quiet powerful rhythm of the heart. A life where peace isn’t something we seek but something that naturally unfolds from within.